Day 11 – BMI concerns.

OK, so today I realized I am not being as serious with weight loss as I had hoped. I am good for a few days and then awful the next, when random stress hits.And time is running out quickly. So I had to take a hard look at myself and say that if I cant get serious for something as major as this, then I should definitely not delude myself that I will just “shed” the baby pounds if I make it to pregnancy and delivery, or lose weight for any other reason for the matter.What worries me most of all is all the data I’ve been reading about BMI and successful IVF outcomes. Study after study shows that weight can certainly affect one’s chances, and the chart on this article really bothered me.

http://www.goivf.com/ivf_process/pretreatment.php4

I know my BMI is higher than the best category rate and that really saddens me. Mostly because there is something that is actually controllable by ME (when almost everything else in IVF isn’t) and I am just failing myself.
So that’s it. Today I am getting serious.I figure it doesn’t matter how many pounds I can lose before the process – the most important thing is to look back and know that I tried – for my own emotional sanity, so that I don’t have my conscious weighing on me till kingdom come. I know that I would do anything to improve my outcome, so its about time to actually show myself that those are not just words. So no more “stress” excuses. There has never been a better time to adopt healthy eating habits and a healthy lifestyle. And every day from now onwards when I feel that I have good reason to relax the rules, I will just have to remember why I’m doing this in the first place. Nothing is worth jeopardizing that.