Day 28 – the other meds are in!

Today the rest of the meds arrived by mail.
Even though I won’t be using them for at least another week, I decided to order them yesterday so that hubby and I can aquaint ourselves with them this weekend, while we have time. The week gets so intense, and I’d rather we are ready with any questions we have by my appt on Thursday.
Also hubby picked up a video from the doctors office today on how to do the following set of injections. I guess we’ll dive into it all tomorrow.

In the evening I called him to open up the package. Afterall the last time we bought something this expensive it was our big screen TV. So it was quite the moment to open up the box of these expensive high-tech contents.

There was Follistim, progesterone (clearly marked do NOT refrigirate), Ovidrel and the Follistim Pen. I openned up the case with the pen, and eyeballed the cartridges. This is what is supposed to be easy? It all looks so complex. The manual alone would take a while to read. Hopefully the video would help.

So wow, these are the meds that should supposedly stimulate me to become this super egg producing being! Exciting and scary.

The lupron is going well. The shots are still a total breeze. Best of all i dont feel any different. Jumped around doing aerobics today and feel great about it. Of course I am concerned that the next step will cause weight gain. It is definitely the LAST thing I need right now, or want. I try to push away the thoughts that I wish I were at least 20 pounds less. (that’s the weight at which I USED to consider myself heavy!) Now I just want to get back there. I also try to push the thoughts away of whether maybe just maybe, if I WERE at that weight, maybe I would not have had a problem conceiving? Who knows. I try to recall the doctors firm affirmation where he looked me in the eye and said “I GUARANTEE you that weight is not the problem”. Well, I guess its my nature to wonder anyway. (Oh and for anyone who is reading this and thinking that I’m probably this skinny thing that thinks she’s fat, rest assured I’m certainly not)

 I’m glad the weekend is here. Its been such an intense week. Sleeeeep. That sounds so good right now. I think I can certainly handle one more week of Lupron. Then, its on to uncharted territory. Scary…. but exciting. Certainly exciting. But… scary.