Day 31 (cycle day 3): Timing worries.

IVF. You just don’t know how its gonna go. As much as I know that all that matters in the end is just the outcome, I still can’t help worrying about the nitty gritty. How can I not? I’m right in it!
And right now I’ve been worried about timing issues. Because of work logistics it would really benefit me to have everything behind me (including transfer and bedrest) before mid-november. Will that be pulled off? All it takes is a little delay here and there and I’m done for. If I’m not ready to stim by Friday, if I stim for longer than expected, if transfer is on day 5 (as planned), I can easily see how this will spill past mid-Nov. Because of projects and deadlines, this will really not benefit me. But we all know how karma works.

I know that worrying about it will not help a thing. My body will simply do what it wants to. But at the very least I can brain storm about my plan Bs and Cs. Not that I can really think of many.

As the stimming phase of the cycle draws nearer, so does the unknown. I sorta dread my appt on Thursday. I dread having to wait for that usual phone call that spells out my fate. Ready to stim, or not.

In a way, I just wish I could go there and demand that they take a look today. Maybe I’m ready already! I have seen sample cycles online where stims begin right after AF. How come I have to wait till what will be day 6 or 7 of my cycle to start stimming? That just seems counter-intuitive. I keep wanting to call and ask “hey, are you sure I can’t come in sooner?” But I know I would only get rushed off the phone with standard replies.

I guess there is no other way out of this, other than to wait. I guess I’ll be having a lot of practice waiting before all this is over.

Shot number 11 was administered a few hours ago. Ouch! That darn needle bounced right off my skin when DH tried to pierce me. What’s this now, is my body developing some sort of resistance to being injected as well?

I guess Thursday can’t come soon enough. And yet… I dread it coming.