17 week update

I know I have not posted in forever, so wanted to make a quick update to let anyone who still reads this know that I’m still alive and kicking (well…. I guess the BABY is kicking technically, and I believe I’m just about on the brink of feeling that – I’ve had moments where I’ve wondered, but am still not sure).

I am 17 weeks and 2 days as of today and unbelievably to me… still very much pregnant. I had a horrible time with nausea right after believing that I would not get it (yeah right, at 7 weeks it kicked in big time and is STILL not completely out of the picture). I discovered that chewing gum all day like a ruminating cow helps keep the nausea checked. That, and eating whatever, whenever, whereever I crave it. Yup…. that means that my kind of good pregnancy “diet” has been eating anything I am craving for the day, because everything else is simply nauseating. Needless to say, I have gained a ton of weight and am trying to believe that it will slow down.

My journey to TTC has helped me tremendously to keep things in good humor no matter what and keep my mind of the fact that ultimately I am finally having that BABY. A dream that I honestly had doubts in my mind that would ever be. I still very much remember being that woman (who could be any woman out there today) that is thinking – it will never be me.

Since becoming pregnant, naturally a huge part of the IF weight of depression lifted like a cloud (ever so slowly). A so much deserved reward after all the tears, tha anguish, and just literally surviving TTC. In a way this brings hope that those dreams that keep us going, even when it seems impossible that we will ever get there, can and do come true.

But also, I wear my journey, my experiences and my testimony proudly like battle scars. It forever changed who I am and made me a BETTER person.

I hope to make more updates again in the future, and hope that this little miracle one comes into the world safely this summer.