Embie.

It is the last day of my unofficial wait (since official beta is Monday, but I plan to test tomorrow). I’ve tried not to zoom into any symptoms, since I know from past experience that anything can mean anything. But just to document my feeling in general – I’ve been really very tired a lot of the time (life without caffeine) and also somehow feeling really bloated recently. A feeling that’s not fun to deal with for sure. Other than that… nothing. No cramps, no tenderness, not a thing.

I have finally scanned in a photo of my embie that I am so very much hoping is growing in me. I know that Flower wanted to see a picture.
Of course I keep looking at this photo all the time and… hoping. A cycle buddy from the May FET thread that I joined that transferred the same day I did, got a BFP yesterday. It is REALLY tempting me to test also, but I am going to try to hold out to tomorrow. Even though I peed into a cup this morning and kept it just in case I can’t hold out and want to test.
But I figure, if I get a BFN today, it may still be too early (my cycle buddy transferred 3 blasts while I have only 1, so even if I will be blessed this cycle, I may still not have enough hcg in my system just yet). Although that said, with DD, this was the qquivalent day that I tested and got my BFP. Man, its hard… and yet, I’d much rather test tomorrow after work and then at least have a weekend to proccess the outcome. Although this weekend is busy, so there’s no time at any time really.

In any case, today I’m just gonna try to enjoy the thought of the embie and hopefully it will not be the last day.
Tomorrow… I’m gonna test.