Day 7 – the fertile world rolls on

September 29, 2006 at 1:14 pm Leave a comment

There is nothing like trying and trying until you forget how long its been and then yet another couple you know announces their pregnancy. You immediately think back to the month they had conceived and remember just EXACTLY how your own BFN that month had destroyed you. So now you know, that while you were raising the national water level with your tears, they were popping their bottle of (non-alchoholic) champagne and dreamily celebrating their news. Lucky bastards. AND, you narrow your eyes, they kept that good news ALL to themselves didn’t they! Now finally, YOU can know about it, and not only will you lament that you didn’t get pregnant that month, but also the fact that you haven’t gotten pregnant ALL these months, and they’re already umpteen months along! NOW you know what all those secret smiles were about.

Unfair, cruel and terrible (the thoughts that is). But so is the reality. Here you are having to smile at them and act like you are so happy, you could just burst open with excitment. But deep inside you are just sad and devastated, that had you conceived when you were “supposed” to, your baby would have been a year old before they had even started trying! Instead, how many more babies will be born before you ever get that BFP?

 So what do you do? You sigh and deal with it. Lets face it, good news happens every day. It just isn’t not your news. Yet. But you just keep looking forward and hope that someday soon… it will be. After all you’ll never know how long that couple tried before they got theirs.

I found out that two coworkers at work are expecting (we just got done delivering a few babies already up at work, and now without a minute’s rest, there’s more pregnancies in the house). Oh well…. you never know… maybe, just maybe… my own good news is not that far away.


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Expecting Number 2… :)

My TTC History

Started TTC May 2005
RE diagnosed as unexplained in Feb 06.
natural IUI #1 March 06 - BFP, m/c :(
natural IUI #2 May 06 - BFN
clomid IUI #3 July 06 - BFN
femara IUI #4 August 06 - BFN

Skipping suggested injectables,
moving to IVF
Bloodwork: Oct 12 for lupron
ER estimated 1st week of Nov

25 eggs, 15 fertilized.
1 blast transferred, 6 frozen.
Precious baby Girl born in July 07.

After 2.5 years of Bliss since that BFP...

April 2009: Start of TTC #2.
(Going back for the embies I left)
Apr 15: Start of Natural FET cycle.
May 1: Transferred single blast
May 11: BFN :(
Straight to Natural FET #2
May 29: Transferred single blast
June 4: BFP!!!!
June 8: 1st beta - 177
June 10: 2nd beta - 506

Healthy baby Boy born 2010!

Fast forward several years...

June 2013: Surprised with a completely natural and completely unplanned BFP!
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