So far so good…

June 6, 2009 at 10:19 pm 3 comments

There is something scary about getting a BFP. You suddenly really really REALLY want to keep it. I’d take a BFN any day over getting a BFP and then losing it. Once pregnant you only want one outcome – a healthy baby. So of course that’s all I’ve been praying about.
On Friday I called the doctor’s office to ask if I could come in for a beta that day since I got a positive the day before. I was put on hold while they went to find out but then they came back to say that I’ve already been scheduled for Monday so I should just continue all my meds and just come in on Monday as planned.

That’s OK. I still would not have had anything but an initial beta at best. What one wants at this point is a doubling beta. And it takes two tests at least two days apart to determine that much.
Still, I have to have SOME reassurance between now and then, so plan B….. pee sticks.
I have of course been peeing since and comparing line darness. Horrible method, I know. But it is all I have for now.

Luckily, I’ve also been pretty busy with a lot of things going on this weekend, so there’s only so much time I can devote to obsessing. But on the flip side, I’ve probably lost count how many times I’ve had to lift and carry my toddler and exert myself beyond the recommended limit.

I do try, but we live in a real world. Not that it doesn’t make me worry. I checked my blood pressure yesterday and was pretty dismayed to see it relatively high again. 140 over 89 or so. Of course I was also watching my toddler in te grocery store at the same time so there was probably no way my blood pressure would have been low. My second reading was much better. Still, I’m pretty worried about blood pressure and really want to ask about it from a healhth care provider right now that I am pregnant.


I have of course, taken a couple tests since that first one. The one that I took the next mornign, seemed a hair lighter than the original one. And the one that everying was about the same.
Then I took one tonight. At first the line started forming and I thought, Oh , here it is again. But then I realized that it seemed a little lighter than the lines from before. At first, I was like “oh no…..”. But then when I went off another room and got back the line had darked pretty well – maybe I judged i it too early . Needless to say I was relieved. I do know that nothing short of a beta will give me a real picture.  But so far at least I don’t have any reasons to think there are problems.

I have been feeling exhausted. EXAUSTED. Not during the day so much, but definitely  very early in the evenings. In fact even as I’ve been typing this I keep catching myself passing out. Several times now I’ve had to go back to make sure I haven’t been typing gibbrish. Yup that bad.

Maybe on that note I should continue tomorrow?

Maybe I should….. and my tomorrow bring with it lots of reassurance news. But in gist… so far. so good.


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All About Yesterday… One reason to look forward to the end of the weekend…

3 Comments Add your own

  • 1. pj  |  June 7, 2009 at 5:05 am

    I have 5 pee sticks from Wednesday to Friday! LOL! After all we’ve been through ANYTHING that is reassuring is ok, I think. Have you been to Fascinating stuff! I think the rule is 3 minutes to develop, and then just under 10 minutes to fully develop.

    I’m nervous about my 2nd beta tomorrow.

  • 2. Jys  |  June 7, 2009 at 8:52 am

    pj, good luck on your 2nd beta tomorrow!!! Yes, I’ve been to that site 😀 lol Used to hang out there a lot – PERFECT for the obsessive! But yes, try to be happy every moment. I know we can’t avoid being cautious, but we should definitely allow ourselves the feeling of happiness!!!

  • 3. Lut C.  |  June 7, 2009 at 2:17 pm

    I get what you mean about wanting to keep the BFP more than anything. Good luck tomorrow!


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Expecting Number 2… :)

My TTC History

Started TTC May 2005
RE diagnosed as unexplained in Feb 06.
natural IUI #1 March 06 - BFP, m/c :(
natural IUI #2 May 06 - BFN
clomid IUI #3 July 06 - BFN
femara IUI #4 August 06 - BFN

Skipping suggested injectables,
moving to IVF
Bloodwork: Oct 12 for lupron
ER estimated 1st week of Nov

25 eggs, 15 fertilized.
1 blast transferred, 6 frozen.
Precious baby Girl born in July 07.

After 2.5 years of Bliss since that BFP...

April 2009: Start of TTC #2.
(Going back for the embies I left)
Apr 15: Start of Natural FET cycle.
May 1: Transferred single blast
May 11: BFN :(
Straight to Natural FET #2
May 29: Transferred single blast
June 4: BFP!!!!
June 8: 1st beta - 177
June 10: 2nd beta - 506

Healthy baby Boy born 2010!

Fast forward several years...

June 2013: Surprised with a completely natural and completely unplanned BFP!
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