Archive for October, 2009

24 weeks!

Today is a milestone cause 24 weeks is usually the time the baby can survive on their own if born. It still seems so far away from delivery so I sure hope not! But being in the hospital this week made me realize that of course anything unpredictable can happen when you least expect.

I am praying that I sail through this pregnancy without any major issues developing. So far so good, but the fact that I am even heavier this time around (by 20lbs or so) is concerning, plus older, plus I had higher blood pressure before pregnancy and so on. But just praying. Next up is the diabetes test scheduled during my checkup on Nov 10th. My ob advised me to just be healthy anyway – exercise, healthy food etc. But I really haven’t been. Its been too crazy busy to carve out time for anything in terms of any kind of official exercise time and so I am just hoping that running around with my toddler helps. Toddler btw has transformed into a little challenging monster overnight. I cannot count the number of times I’ve thought, oh boy. If I had gone through with that FET in february and had my baaby right about NOW – will I have had a hard time! At 18 months DD was an angel – not so much right now.

Baby nu,ber 2 in the mean time is a lot of fun – I had a precious time last night pressing on my tummy and baby responding back with a kick each time 🙂 pregnancy really is a wondrous time in a womans life and the only REAL time we ever multi-task. It is mind boggling to me that I am doing all these things from making decisions to working to keeping up with a toddler and all the while not even for a minute does my brain neglect my baby’s needs. If only the other part of my brain was this amazing and tireless and efficient! I had a thought the other day while driving, do men have this part in the brain too? The part that controls pregnancy? Like what would happen if you transplaanted a man’s brain into the woman’s body? I wonder.

But brains aside, God is truly amazing in how He creates human beings. Even knowing all the biology of it and the amazing journey we’ve had still doesn’t make it less mind-boggling!

October 25, 2009 at 2:06 pm 1 comment

Posting from Labor and Delivery

Ok, first things first – nothing to panick about – I am here for monitoring cause I slipped on a wet floor and fell, at my doctors office of all places. It was a really minor fall and if this had happened elsewhere I would not have been here, I don’t think – but they freaked a little and didn’t want to take chances so here I am. It took forever to get me hooked up to the monitors – first it was the tons of paperwork, and then it was equipment mulfunction. By then I could have told them I had done enough monitoring on my own and that judging from all the healthy kicking and movements baby is just fine. But of course they won’t just take my word for it.

Today was the day of my routine 20-something week sonogram, which is why I was at my doctors office. I was there with DH and also had DD with me this time. I figured if hopefully nothing goes wrong this might be the last chance to see my new little one before birth. So I wanted DD to have at least had this experience. Of course its hard enough for an adult to fathom the miracle of what’s happening, what more a toddler. She immediately lifted her shirt and wanted to be “sonogramed” too.
Baby is doing perfect, measuring right on track, 1lb 4 oz, heartrate of 150 and in breech position for now. Unfortunately baby was facing my back and it was real hard to get a good picture. The monitor wasn’t showing great quality either it seems I got better photos from my 16 week scan. But mainly I am happy that all is well. It was also so trippy to see movement on the screen and to aactually feel it at the same time! Right now as I am typing this, baby is actively trying to kick the monitoring device off my tummy – so funny. I actually just saw the movement – which makes it the first time for tthis baby 🙂

Hopefully it will not be too much longer and I’ll get to go home. Its actually trippy to be here again. We got to walk into the room where DD was born for the first time since birth. Amazing to think that I am going to be back here… in about 16 or so weeks to be meeting my new little one!

October 21, 2009 at 6:11 pm 6 comments

22 Weeks – pregnancy is flying…

I had meant to post an update on the half way point, and before I knew it, it has been two weeks since then. Shows you how much time is just flying. I am 22 weeks today, and decided to make an update first thing in the morning before another 2 weeks fly by.

How am I doing? Well, so far so good. Purely with regards to pregnancy, things are coasting so far, although I am definitely paranoid about developing any complications down the line. Just because my first pregnancy was textbook and uneventful doesn’t mean I have come to expect thing kind of blessing each time.
Where it comes to the emotional side of pregnancy, a good way to say it is that I am feeling very robbed of really being able to appreciate this miracle with the attention and wonder it deserves. My life is packed busy, and lots of times, I mourn the fact that I am unable to just sit there and stare at my tummy with a loving gaze and dream about the baby – instead I am just horrified at how quickly the time is flying and how quickly it is running out. I try as much as I can to devote time to just “enjoy every minute”, but the truth is, every minute of mine is in high demand with 500 million things on my plate, and one toddler. I feel sad because chances are I may never be pregnant again. And this is my 2nd trimester – the best of them all typically – I SHOULD be spending time appreciating this moment every second that I have.

Well, so here I am writing to make sure I do that. I do have to say that no matter how busy I am, I don’t forget to think about this blessing. Even if I dont have too much time to stop and just obsess over it, I do always know in the back of my mind what a precious blessing this is. And for that reason, I try to ignore the fact that I have gained way more than I had wanted so far – about 20 lbs. I know I will have serious work to get my body back once the baby comes. Unfortunately, there has not been any time to exercise. I often lament that if pregnancy was ALL I had on my plate, I would certainly incorporate that into my life. As it turns out, unfortunately, it is one of the first things to fly out the window with everything else that needs to fit into the day.

So far though the baby seems to be doing great and is healthy 🙂 Yesterday, I lay in bed at night and enjoyed a wonderful session of kicking. I got DH to put his hand on my tummy and at first (of course) the baby quitetened down immediately. But when we gave up waiting and DH took his hand away, soon enough the action started back up. So I got DH to put his hand back and sure enough he felt 3 solid kicks one after another. It truly is amazing that there is a baby in there – in a way, it hasn’t really hit me!
I am trying to prepare – or at least have a game plan of how/when to prepare for the big arrival – there is certainly fewer things to do than the first time around, but they are there none-the-less. WIth the crazy holiday season coming up right smack in the middle of things, I don’t want to wait until it is too far into it.
I have a doctors appointment last week and somewhere around there potentially my last ultrasound for this pregnancy (barring anything going wrong). It seems that we have solidly decided to go all the way and find out the gender at birth. At times I wonder if I should do it differently this time – just to try out both ways. But I also fear wishing I had waited till birth for the big surprise – I have to admit, the first time around, this was such a special moment that I cannot imagine anything more perfect. And after all, after the baby is born, I will know the gender the rest of my life. Most people find out, and they all gasp saying how on earth will I “prepare” without knowing. truthfully, that matters the least to me – not that much preparation for the second one, sicne we already have everything – and in gender neutral colors too, since we didn’t find out the first time either. Diapers are unisex the last time I checked. What else is there? Truthfully, within a few minutes that we found out that DD is a girl we were buried in pink anyway. Whatever our new little one is going to be isn’t going to mean that they will be denied any gender specific stuff.

The harder part is having to come up with two names (we’re pretty solid on a girl so far, but still struggling with a boy’s name) and also it seems that it would be nice to refer to the baby as he or she, and speak with a concrete gender when talking to our toddler about her new sibling on the way. In perspective though, it doesn’t matter – I don’t think she is gonna totally get the concept (hey, its hard enough for adults) until the baby is really here. And the terms “brother”, or “sister” do not mean much to her either. The word “baby” is about the closest she comes to truly understanding what is being talked about. So maybe I should drop my slight undecisiveness and just enjoy every minute of waiting for the big surprise. DH is solid – he definitely wants to wait for the big day.

Well, wish me luck. Hopefully I will start updating more frequently, even if they are small posts, and doing better at making time to enjoy this wonderful period of the making of our new baby. 🙂

October 11, 2009 at 9:03 am 6 comments


Expecting Number 2… :)

My TTC History

Started TTC May 2005
RE diagnosed as unexplained in Feb 06.
natural IUI #1 March 06 - BFP, m/c :(
natural IUI #2 May 06 - BFN
clomid IUI #3 July 06 - BFN
femara IUI #4 August 06 - BFN

Skipping suggested injectables,
moving to IVF
Bloodwork: Oct 12 for lupron
ER estimated 1st week of Nov

UPDATE:
25 eggs, 15 fertilized.
1 blast transferred, 6 frozen.
Precious baby Girl born in July 07.

After 2.5 years of Bliss since that BFP...

April 2009: Start of TTC #2.
(Going back for the embies I left)
Apr 15: Start of Natural FET cycle.
May 1: Transferred single blast
May 11: BFN :(
Straight to Natural FET #2
May 29: Transferred single blast
June 4: BFP!!!!
June 8: 1st beta - 177
June 10: 2nd beta - 506


UPDATE:
Healthy baby Boy born 2010!

Fast forward several years...

June 2013: Surprised with a completely natural and completely unplanned BFP!
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